It's My Birthday!

  

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today is my birthday!

happy birthday to me! 

I have lived a quarter of a century.

unbelievable!

I am grateful to have made it through another year of life. 

A Dream Deferred

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What happens to a dream deferred? Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore--
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over--
like a syrupy sweet? Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load. Or does it explode? -- Langston Hughes

8 months since graduating with a Masters degree and still no job to show for it. I go through bouts of anxiousness and being antsy,  but I think that has all boiled down to tiresomeness, anger, and re-evaluation.

Tiresome: because I have spent EIGHT months doing nothing but job-hunting with the highest of hopes of getting hired, especially in such a big city with tons of universities, hospitals, and pharmaceutical companies.

Angry: because I spent so much time and money on private school degrees and currently have nothing to show for it.

Re-evaluating: because I am no longer sure if this career path that I have chosen is really one that I should pursue.

I mean, I love science, and have had a growing interest in it for several years now. But it does become disheartening when 200+ job applications (yes, you read that correctly -- 217 applications to be exact!!) yield nothing. Employers say they want employees with experience. How do we acquire experience without someone granting us the opportunity to learn? to grow?

I trust in the Lord for His promises to provide and grant me the desires of my heart. He has done it before. More than once. It's just a little difficult seeing where this one will go. Is there a reason why I am losing interest in working as a research laboratory technician? (other than sheer frustration over job-hunting). Is this not what I am called to do?

I guess I just have to continue trusting and see what happens.

'Hope deferred makes the heart sick, But when the desire comes, it is a tree of life.'
Proverbs 13:12

Connecticut, the Beautiful

Beau's college friend got married this weekend, so we took a little trip up to Connecticut to see him tie the knot. I was super excited about going since I hadn't been here since graduation and we planned on visiting the church I attended while living there.

 After leaving over an hour after our projected departure time and driving south instead of north we finally made it.

Connecticut was just as beautiful as it was when I left. There was snow on the ground (old snow, but snow nonetheless), the air was crisp and the views were great. We arrived right around dusk and happened to pass by the Trap Falls Reservoir which had the most amazing view.

Beau's friend's wedding on Sunday was also beautiful. All in all, I really just enjoyed getting away for a short while. I look forward to many more road trips with my love.