February 28, 2011

Go girl, seek happy nights to happy days

I had a great weekend. My friend from home came to visit me here in CT. 'Twas fun just getting away from the normal weekend routine, which honestly doesn't consist of much activity. Seeing a familiar face was just good.

I picked her up in Hartford on Friday afternoon in monsoon-like rain. We drove back, unwound a bit with lunch, followed by a trip to the mall. We crashed pretty early that night (If you consider 11:30/midnight 'early').

Saturday was spent just enjoying the day. Our plans to go to brunch were curtailed when we found ourselves being ultimate time-wasters. We didn't leave for "brunch" until after 2pm! However, we were lucky to find 2-hour parking in downtown New Haven, in front of some of the Yale dorms. We walked through a random park in the middle of the city. Took a few pics, met an Ecuadorian guy who went to Uni in Philly, and finally made it to the coffee shop.

We sipped on hot chocolate and vanilla chai for an hour or so, enjoying the atmosphere of the cute little coffee shop. Dear friend then decided to distract a random guy from his studies to take pics of us. He turned out to be a really nice med-school student who attended UPenn's medical school and was now in CT completing his residency (We met TWO guys who studied in our hometown... strange). As I continued to mind my business, Dearest friend decided to talk to this guy about everything under the sun including his time at med school, her dream of wanting to go to med school turned to nursing, traveling, going out, networking, science in general, and then on to his personal life and if he plans on marrying his current girlfriend 3 years his senior. I thought it was kind of funny...But as I said, I minded my business and enjoyed my hot chocolate and free wi-fi. ツ

We quickly ran back to the car in hopes of not finding a parking ticket attached to the windshield wipers... We were ticket free! The rest of the day consisted of random travels, dinner at a commercial steak house, and ending the night with stereotypical girlish banter. (seriously).

Sunday we attended church, caught up on homework, and ate a home-cooked dinner while watching a movie... an overall relaxing end to this weekend. ツ

February 24, 2011

Things I Love Thursday

Thanks to my quick-thinking beau and his kind heart, I now have 2 new albums in my possession:

1. Corrine Bailey Rae's "The Love E.P."

I really enjoyed the album in it's entirety, though there were only 5 songs.

My fave was definitely her rendition of "Que Sera Sera" with a vocal accompaniment by John McCallum. It was 13 minutes and 26 seconds of pure awesomeness!

2. Adele's sophomore album "21"

I liked the overall progression of the songs on the album. In a way, it depicted all the feelings one experiences when going through a break-up.

Her voice was so crisp and I can honestly say that I felt every emotion emitted through her voice and the lyrics, especially in the songs "Don't You Remember" and "Take It All". Those two were also my favorite songs on the album.

I also think her closing song, "Someone Like You", was absolutely splendid. It was like, the song that expresses all the feelings you still have for a past love who has moved on while you haven't.

"I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
'Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead'"

February 23, 2011

Chubby Bot

I weigh 11 stones and 10.2 pounds. I am not ashamed to say it. But, why do I feel so crappy?

Yea, I remember now.... It's because I can't fit into any of my jeans!!

Ok, lies! ...

I can fit into 3 pairs, but they're all the same cut and I'm not too enthused about that.

I've gained some weight in the past few months or so. Funny thing is, though, I've been keeping track of my weight since I bought my scale last summer (which gives me my weight in stones... gotta love ebay), and I'm actually 2.7 pounds lighter than I was July 2nd! Strange, right?!

In any case, I don't feel fat. I just feel... frumpy. I have long legs and a short-ish torso. Which means I also have a high sitting bum part (that I'm not too fond of either, but that's another story). Although I prefer to wear dresses over jeans, and plan on converting my entire wardrobe to dresses, I rarely go out, and when I do, it's just to go studying on the York Hill campus, go grocery shopping or go to church. Two out of the three activities do not require dresses, so I'd rather wear jeans. It really sucks that I don't fit into them.

My increase in size seems to really be localized in the rump and thighs. Like, seriously. I feel the jiggle and the shake when I walk. I know. I know what you're thinking.... "gross"... "blegh"... "tmi"...
Watevs! Obviously, that is the reason why I can not fit in my jeans.

The main culprit to my weight gain, you ask? Sweets! Ice cream. Cupcakes.... Ice cream. *sigh* and progressive snacking. It is such a bad habit. I sometimes think I eat out of boredom. Sad, I know, but it's true and many people do it.

I can't afford to gain anymore weight than this though, b/c I seriously don't feel good about myself. I hate the fact that nothing fits right. I hate that my pear shape will gradually become an apple shape. I also absolutely hate above all things, that my mother constantly tells me that I shouldn't "gain anymore weight". Like... CON-STANT-LY!

So, I need a change.

I cleared my apartment of all sweets. I am increasing my water intake, and once I decide to stop being lazy, I will take myself to QU's fitness center multiple times a week to work out. I'm serious.

I refuse to be an apple!

February 22, 2011

Can You Send Me an Angel?


Sometimes I feel like I don't belong anywhere
And it's gonna take so long for me to get somewhere
Sometimes I feel so heavy hearted
But I can't explain 'cause I'm so guarded

But that's a lonely road to travel
And a heavy load to bare
And it's a long long way to Heaven
But I gotta get there....

Can You send an angel?
Can You send me an angel
.... To guide me?
~"Prelude to a Kiss" by Alicia Keys

She gets me sometimes!

February 20, 2011

Out of Stock

I have never had quite as many headaches in a school year than I've had since starting grad school. I'm not blaming it on grad school per se. I'm sure it is a result of some outside factor... like, needing a new prescription.

Anyhoo, this post is dedicated to my graduate school woes.

First, I don't think this school was the right choice for me.

  • This is not a research school so it doesn't have research funding.
  • It has been really hard to find a laboratory/pharmaceutical job in this state. Even if it's just to get a job as a lab technician where I mix media, wash glassware and autoclave them... I would do it. Yet, I've applied to 56 jobs (lab and non-lab) since September 1, 2010 and I've only had two interviews.
  • The classes are more conceptual than hands on. I am a hands on person. I hate reading, but I love solving problems. So far, I've only heard of 3 actual lab courses offered by the school. I am enrolled in one right now, and there are 2 more protein-based classes that are a requirement for those in the Masters of Molecular Biology program. I'm not big on molecular biology (mainly because I suck at memorizing and understanding pathways), but I think I'm going to try to take one of those classes.

Second, this school has no supplies!

  • In my cell culture class last week, we were supposed to prepare a Phosphate-buffered solution (PBS) for use in growing our cells. The professor went through the lab protocol for the day and told use to get started. Two minutes later, she came back saying "Ok. Change in plans. We don't have PBS." ... How in the world are we supposed to make a PBS solution without PBS?? It's like trying to make hot chocolate without any cocoa.
  • So, the professor decided to skip the first protocol to work on the second. This required making a cell culture medium. In order for our cells to survive and thrive while they're plated, they need some kind of growth factor or hormones. We can use either calf serum, horse serum, or fetal bovine serum. The professor opted to use calf serum. She believed our cells would be 'happier' with this serum. Lo and behold.... we had no calf serum!!
  • At this point, I'm wondering what my tuition money is being used for and I was quite annoyed and upset.
**Ok, End Rant**

I guess I can't complain too much. I applied to this school and got accepted for a reason.
  1. I wanted to further my education.
  2. I wanted to enroll in a PhD program and needed a stepping stone to get there since undergrad was less than impressive for me.
  3. I researched the school in much detail and found a professor who had as much passion for Immunology as I did. I wanted to work in her lab.
  4. Lastly, Graduate school is what I wanted! I prayed for it with earnest tears in my eyes and go it. So I'm sucking it up and taking things as they come. Overall, I'm still pretty grateful for this opportunity. ツ

February 18, 2011


"Ten spiders crawl
on my walls
i guess that's all
it's just an ordinary day..."

~"Ordinary" by Grand Avenue~

It's such a beautiful day. I woke up to the birds chirping, the sun trying to peek through the clouds, and a reminder of that song.

February 17, 2011

February 14, 2011

Warrior Love

This video of the day is dedicated to my beau.
Happy Valentine's Day

Warrior Love by Etana

"Behind every strong man
There is a good woman
That's who I live to be
You seem to be pleased with who I am
'Cause you're the strongest man I've ever seen
I'm a whole lotta woman
Full of everything your love is worth
For you to have me on your mind always
You must be carrying the weight of the earth..."

New Look

I've made some changes to my blog:
  • The banner
  • The color scheme
  • The layout.

When I started my blog a year ago, I had a pre-made template from some fancy blog designer.

As I got more familiar with blogger and more interested in reading blogs, I saw a variety in blog banners and wanted to know how I could create my own. I found an easy-to-follow tutorial through a Google search and worked on it during Winter break. I was really happy with the resulting banner, but as time went on, I hated the color scheme. Black is NOT my color, neither is pink. They're great wardrobe colors, but I think they were too dark for a blog. I also hated how my text stretched on for days because there was no defined border.

I decided to play around with the different templates Blogger provided and found one that suited me. I can now say that I am quite happy with the new look. It's brighter. It's fresher. I love it!

Thoughts on the new look?

February 10, 2011

Things I Love Thursday

This week, I'm in love with young, married, Christian bloggers. They sometimes give readers a glimpse of their lives and marriage bliss through their blog posts and I cannot help but to anticipate feeling that same bliss.

The first is Sydney's blog, The Daybook. She often blogs about her time spent with "Husband" or the cute, quirky things he does on a daily basis. Her love for her husband drips off of every word used to write about him. This is by far my favorite post!

I also like Katie's blog, life observed by {kate}. They are newlyweds, but I remember when I started reading her blog (last summer, I believe), and I was just amazed at how grateful she was that God has placed this man into her life. Sounds kind of familiar.

The last blog, Honey and Salt, was found randomly (like many other blogs that I follow). I think it was that little write-up below her 'about me' blurb that pulled me in.

There's one final Final blog that I'm loving this week. I JUST found this last blog today (2-6-2011). Yea, I sometimes write my blog posts way ahead of time b/c blogger has this handy scheduler thing under the post options. Anyhoo... The Blissfully Blessed Wife's blog was featured on DSW 's facebook page this morning. The name of her blog was enough to get me wanting to visit her page. I like what I have seen so far. I definitely hit the "follow" button within the first 5 minutes of perusing through her blog and reading the about me section.

Check them out.

February 8, 2011

Video of the Day

Stars and the Moon performed by Audra McDonald
written by Jason Robert Brown

Are we ever satisfied?

February 4, 2011

Paint the Town RED (OOTD)

February is National Heart Disease Awareness Month and today, February 4th, is the National Go Red for Women Day. You can visit this site to learn more.... Although I am more pro-breast cancer awareness than anything, reality is ... heart disease is the number one killer of women. [Source 1 and Source 2]

In honor of Go Red for Women Day and to raise awareness for the cause, I wanted to try an outfit of the day post. Now trust me... although they are my favorite to peruse through, I will NOT make it a regular thing to do OOTD posts. I have to admit though, I had a ton of fun taking these pics. But, it sucked not having an actual photographer or tripod, so the good ol' self timer sufficed.

**Disclaimer: I am in no way affiliated with these organizations (although working in a lab at the CDC would be ideal in the future). ツ **

February 3, 2011

Question 3

Why worry?

If anyone knows me and knows me well, they know that I am a 100% certified worry-wart.

I worry about my hair... my face... the way I talk... what I'm wearing... the way I look at any given time... What people think of me... What they might say... How I might get to a specific location... How I might do a certain task... Where I might end up in the future.

As the author of this 20 Questions article stated: "Worry(ing) is just painful, useless fear about hypothetical events". As I review those worries that often haunt me, I see that this is true. My worries mainly consists of things regarding my physical appearance. Maybe because I've had so many hurtful things said to me about my appearance throughout the years. Honestly, events like those I have experienced can really scar a person's life, as they have done to me. But you live and you learn to get over them.

It's funny that as I am writing this blog post, I got a text from a friend that says:

"She's beautiful without knowing it.
She's smart without gloating it.
She's funny without over doing it.
She's strong without forcing it/
She's amazing without seeing it.
She's the perfect friend and the perfect person but doesn't believe it.
Out of all the women in the world, she's the one I'm glad to know.
She's YOU."

... 'Nough said. I'm done with this post. There is absolutely nothing to worry about. I am just fine the way I am... made in God's image. Lesson learned. I actually think that was the point of this question.


What reason do you have to not worry?

Things I Love Thursday

I've seen "Things I love Thursday" as a feature on many blogs (including this one) that I read and thought I would like to take part in it. I often find some really cute things online that I'd like to share with my closest of friends, just because, but I'm sure it can be tiring for them to get these messages with random links from me, so I've decided to share those things here. This week I love frills & tiers, afro-textured hair, as well as simple, yet beautiful photography...

February 1, 2011

Question 2

Is this what I want to be doing? [Source]

I ask myself this question quite often. Although my daily life mainly consists of grad school, I often wonder about the path that I chose. I guess the answer to this current question is... yes. At the moment, I don't see myself anywhere else. Sure, I wish certain things in my life were different. We all do in some manner or another... but I like where I am.

Graduate school is where I want to be. I can remember when I decided that this is what I wanted to do and not medical, nursing, or PA school as my mom and my educational advisers have suggested. I am not much of a people person. I can be, when I have grown used to someone, but that takes time. Constantly meeting new people in a healthcare setting would immediately give me anxiety. Besides, I absolutely like research, and even if I don't end up doing research right away after I complete this program, any position in a laboratory would suffice. I just LOVE the thrill of discovering things, and learning more about a certain subject.

That may be why I am such a Googler. Just give me a few key words about a certain subject/object and I will get results, no matter how small. I remember seeing a really cute top someone was wearing in a photograph, and I instantly hopped on Google, and began searching specific key phrases (mainly the bold features of the top). After a few word combinations, I was able to not only find an image of that specific tank top, but I was also able to find where it was sold and the retail price!!....

Now, if I can do that with Google only, how much more can I do with cells, proteins, DNA, or antibodies-- especially since there is so much research and information out there regarding each of them? Since I was a child, I knew I wanted to work in the healthcare industry to help better the lives of everyday people, just like my mother does as a nurse. That dream has not diminished, it has only been adjusted slightly. I doubt that I will be able to find a cure to cancer or any other deadly disease, because God is in control of the knowledge humans gain on Earth. I do, however, believe that I can make a difference in the future of medicine via vaccines or drug development, and that is EXACTLY what I want to do!

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