September 30, 2010

30 Day Blog Challenge-- Challenge List



So, here's the challenge list I decided on. I tweaked it a bit. I'm excited to start. :-)

Day 1 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.
Day 2 – A photo of something you ate today.
Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.
Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.
Day 5A photo of yourself 2 years ago
Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.
Day 7 – Your dream wedding.
Day 8A song to match your mood
Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased.
Day 10 – A photo of your favorite place to eat.
Day 11 – Nicknames you have & how or why you have them.
Day 12 – A photograph of the town you live in.
Day 13 -- Your day, in great detail
Day 14 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without.
Day 16 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 17 – A photo of you and your family.
Day 18 – Something you crave a lot.
Day 19 – Another picture of yourself.
Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name.
Day 21 – A photo of something that makes you happy.
Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Day 23 – 15 facts about you.
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.
Day 25 – What’s in your purse?
Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you’ve been to.
Day 27 – A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?
Day 28 – In this past month, what have you learned.
Day 29Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

Questions



What is it about us as humans that make us want to bring up the past of others? Is it a coping mechanism for when we’re hurting to make ourselves feel better by making someone else feel crappy? Is it that we’re so hurt and cast down that all we can think about is negativity? Why is it so hard to forget the past?

What is it about us as humans that makes us so spiteful? Does it make us feel good when someone else hurts? Does it all of a sudden makes us feel better about ourselves? Or are we REALLY trying to let others feel the way we did when they hurt us?

Why are we as humans so fragile? We get cut easily. We bleed easily. We ail easily. We cry easily. We die easily. Is it because our bodies are made of clay? Simple dust of the Earth. Tread upon by humans and animals as if it’s nothing. Easily washed away with water. Yet the dust of the earth so essential for life. It yields fruit to nourish our bodies… just as we do to help those that we love. But, we still continue to tread upon it and destroy it with pollutants and garbage…. Just as we do to each other with our words and our acts of hatred.

How did we get like this?

September 28, 2010

Burden of Guilt

I'm done feeling guilty for things of the past. For as long as I can remember living in the US (since emigrating here from Jamaica), I've lived a miserable life and that misery doesn't seem to want to leave. I don't know what else to do. I'm done worrying. I'm done crying. I'm done hurting.

Video of the Day

This is my new 'happy' song.


"Say Hey (I Love You)" Michael Franti & Spearhead


September 27, 2010

Heaven Meets Earth Like a Sloppy Wet Kiss


I know I've blogged about this song before, but I REALLY love it, so here it is again. :-)

How He Loves Us by John Mark Macmillan

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us so.

We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like a wonderful kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…

He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh yeah how He loves.





September 20, 2010

"My love for you is brighter than the sun and nothing can shade you from it's rays... like how an eclipse occurs but the sun still peaks through... I love you like that"
~ my Beau~

30 Day Blog Challenge


I am thinking of doing a 30-day blog challenge. This 30 day blog challenge allows you to post a blog for 30 consecutive days and each day you have a new topic to blog about. I have seen it and its progression on the blogs of a few people so far and I really want to partake.

I've done some research just to see what the variations are and where it originated. After that research segment, I've decided to stick to stay far away from these! The only answer I received in regards to the origination is from this ezine article stating that it started in 2008. I'm guessing though, that the idea sprung up to either bring more traffic to someone's blog, help them expand the contents of their blog or to increase the number of blog entries they have.

Well, me?.... I JUST WANT TO DO THIS FOR FUN! I also want to do this b/c I get bored sometimes and want to blog, but I have no clue what to blog about.

So, yea. I'll start this on October 1st (it'll be easier to keep track of the days that way). I'm going to research some more blog challenges to see which ones look the most interesting and I'll post my final decision the day before I start the challenge. I'm hex-cited!

September 19, 2010

So Far...

Photo Credit: "Lonely Girl" by Costão do Santinho

This transition from home to a new state and a new town has not been easy. So far, I hate 2/3 of my classes. I haven't made any friends yet. And I hardly get to interact with people. I only have classes on Monday, Wednesday and Thursday evenings from 6:30 to 9:00 pm. My days consist of waking up. Having devotion. Eating. Then reading for classes and such. When I get bored, I watch movies or TV shows online. Sometimes my friend from home will call. Sometimes I talk to my bf on AIM during the day. But all of that only goes so far. Later in the afternoon, I'll cook dinner, then get ready for class. I go to class. Get talked at by my professors for 2.5 hours then I'm home again. It's so lonely at nighht, I don't want to go to sleep, hoping to avoid the monotony of waking up and going through the same cycle again.

I've always liked being "alone" or to myself, but I never knew that actually being alone could be THIS lonely.

My mom suggested transferring to a graduate school with a similar program closer to home, but I don't know if I want to do that. Towards the end of undergrad, I was at a point where I didn't know what I wanted to do post-graduation. My grades weren't spectacular enough to get into an MS/PhD program. I considered taking the easy route and applying to radiology programs. I still had dreams of actually getting a PhD and so I often searched for MS programs that I could apply to. One day I stumbled upon this Masters program at Quinnipiac University. I thought to myself that this could be a foot in the door opportunity for me so I applied. I prayed over the application, my transcript, the recommendations from my professors and sent it off. It was the ONLY graduate program that I applied to and I was accepted. For that reason, I believe that I'm here for a special purpose. God answered my prayers of getting into graduate school, but I also believe that I'm here to do his work or to learn a lesson. This is why I am so apprehensive about transferring.

There are people in my classes who I could connect with although most of them really are married with full time jobs and kids. One guy is a physician's assistant. He has been for 20 years. His profession suddenly requires having a Masters in Health Science and that's why he's at Quinnipiac. Others could be married b/c of cultural reasons (There are a lot of Middle Easterns in my classes), and some people just seem really old in general. All the others students who have just graduated undergrad this year all fly out of class when it's dismissed and there is no interaction there at all.

I found a church in the neighboring town, Cornerstone Church, to attend the first week I was here and have been going since. I really like the services and some of the people are really welcoming and really nice, but once again, I haven't made any connections. I understand that friendships take a while, but wow... this is taking a LONG while.

The only things I look forward to now are alumni weekend at Drew and Thanksgiving when I get to go home. I'm also applying to jobs and things to keep me occupied. I've tried finding a park or something to hang out in during the day, they've all been sketchy looking so far so I stay away from them, but I'm considering going on a nature trail at the Sleeping Giant State Park across the street from school one of these days. It would just be something to keep my mind occupied, b/c a person REALLY could go crazy depressed living like this....

...Ugh!I'm almost there. :-\

September 18, 2010

Crushin'

I was first introduced to Robbie Jones while watching season 6 of One Tree Hill. He played troubled student and 'bad guy' basketball player, Quinten Fields. I didn't like his character too much b/c he was rude most of the time, but as 'Quinten' role took a turn for the better, I started liking him more and more. The writers eventually killed his character and all that was left of him were memories.

He's back this season/year in a new CW tv show,Hellcats . He plays a cheerleader, Lewis. Thinking about his character in One Tree Hill, I couldn't imagine him being a cheerleader in this show but I have to say that I'm liking him so far. He's being quite the charmer and he's actually pretty good looking. ツ


September 16, 2010

For Colored Girls...

I want to see this movie. It's based on the play For Colored Girls Who Have Considered Suicide When the Rainbow is Enuff by N’tozake Shange (1975). I've never seen the screen play, but this film looks promising.


Here's the trailer:


September 13, 2010

Video of the Day



"Through Heaven's Eyes"
Prince of Egypt Soundtrack

"The Prince of Egypt" is one of my favorite childhood movies. The Swan Princess is the other.

This is the scene where Moses is welcomed into Jethro's camp after saving his daughters and learns the way of the Midianites. He eventually falls in love with Zipporah/Tsipporah and marries her. (I love that name, btw).

10 Things I learnt this weekend


  1. You shouldn't rip a command strip off the wall. It defeats the purpose of what they're made for.
  2. I miss being close to NY.
  3. My mind will decide that it wants one thing and I'll listen to it, but I should really go with what my heart wants instead.
  4. I need to read my Bible and pray more consistently.
  5. I've committed many follies in my relationship.
  6. My mom actually gives pretty good advice sometimes.
  7. I need to let go of the pain and hurt I've experienced in my past. (Hebrews 12:15)
  8. The Lord has a special plan for my life, I just need to surrender to him.
  9. I should probs start working out or at least going for a walk.
  10. I REALLY like Zooey Deschanel's style.

September 12, 2010

Zooey Deschanel

I loved her wardrobe in (500) days of Summer. She had an ultra feminine-vintage style that I wouldn't even mind making my own... A lot of dresses and high waisted bottoms with bow accents in her hair and cute, simple shoes all in various shades of blue. I wish I could shop in her closet. *sigh*

Oh, the movie was pretty good too. ツ



September 10, 2010

Video of the Day

"If It Makes You Happy"
by Sheryl Crow



I really like this song. Sheryl Crow sounds a little angry/frustrated while singing it, but that's just her bringing across the emotion of the message of the song. She sings of a relationship from its initial stages where you tell tales of what you've done and haven't done. Some of it may be lies, some might not. But what's really true is when you say "I'd never give up" (Hook 1).

Then the relationship gets real. You're tested, you're tried. Your partner gets sad. You get sad. You both get through it. You do everything in your will to please that person even "Bring you comics in bed, scrape the mold off [their] bread. And make them french toast, again". (Verse 2)


-- My favorite part of this song is:
"Well, o.k. I still get stoned
I'm not the kind of girl you'd take home
If it makes you happy
It can't be that bad
If it makes you happy
Then why the hell are you so sad"

.... It's like, in relationships, no one is perfect. Everyone has their flaws. But even in your flaws, awkwardness and personality traits that would be considered a turn-off to some, the one who loves you the most doesn't seem to mind it much. Yet... there is still some form of unhappiness and it's unclear why.

Found!




-- A girl in my fundamentals of oncology class was wearing a DREW University hoodie today (as was I). Strangely enough, we didn't notice it until after the 3 hour class lecture. It was like a breath of fresh air to find someone I had something in common with after a week or so. We talked about going back for alumni weekend and things like that until we parted in the parking lot.

September 2, 2010

Secluded



Day 6 in Hamden.

So far, the majority of the people in my class are married... with child(ren) ... AND have full time jobs. That means no friend for me. I'm feeling a bit secluded in this apartment. I might go driving aimlessly for 2 hours and when I get tired of doing that, I'll put the GPS up to find my way back home to prepare myself for class. :-\

September 1, 2010

Compliments




Sometimes, I think my beau has a storage box of compliments to throw at me whenever I say something is wrong with the way I look.

Like, I would say "I look at hot mess" and he would respond "Well, you're the hottest looking mess I've ever seen". Lol.

I love him though.
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